Gloomy Sunday? Baking soda water can cheer you up!

Not really, but what a haunting tune. Check out Big Maybelle singing it. Yowch.

I was syncing my phone this morning, apparently there was an update so I figured , it won't kill me to update before I go to the gym. Except that something happened, and it had to abort the whole thing - and had to restore my phone to factory settings. Now I'm recovering it, I'm assuming without the update. A waste of time, but I couldn't leave home without my phone and music. So instead, I moved furniture - which I had to do since tomorrow there will be more construction at home. It's been an ongoing project in our apartment complex. I sure hope it's over soon. Still more to move, but I got some done, had a nice raw almond butter sandwich on Ezekiel bread for breakfast, and, after being hungry still (story of my life!) a little organic cottage cheese with flaxseed oil. I am not a fan of this new brand of cottage cheese we bought - Organic Nancy's. It's really got a biting taste - but I can't waste the crap, so down it goes.

Had an interesting day yesterday - morning workout with my man, then a nice long walk to get my hair trimmed, followed by an accidental passing by of an old friend's health food store. I've done it before and he's never been in, I guess being part owner, you don't need to... but I stopped in anyway, and he was there! We talked a lot about good things, and I told him about the cancer. It was interesting  talking to him  -  and he highly recommended drinking Baking Soda  and water to oxygenate the blood.  Do a search and you'll find many articles on it - combining with other ingredients or on it's own. So I got a bag of Bob's Red Mill Baking Soda (I'm sure better than the box that has been open in my fridge for a year or more!) enjoyed my chat, and ran off to dinner with the man.  Sushi. I didn't realize how I'd been craving it!

All in all, a nice day. He was exhausted when we got home - usually that's my role! We were going to work on a project but he just couldn't, so off to bed we went. I sat up and read a stupid health magazine (one of those things from an airline frequent flyer program I think) and laughed at how shallow it was about health.  But it put me to sleep eventually.

Woke up as my guy was leaving for his flight, and went back to sleep on and off a little. It wasn't easy, so I got up, head pounding. Took care of some biz I had to, got dressed in gym clothes... and that was 3 hours ago. This damn phone kept me from hitting the gym, but it hopefully will be done with whatever it's been doing. I need to sweat a bit. My head is still killing me and I just want to sleep, but I know it would never happen.

I hate feeling so uncertain about anything. I want to know if I have the gene. I want to know when my surgery will be, how long I will be unavailable to the planet as an artist, how long until I can work on my craft again. It sucks not knowing.

But I did choke down a glass of baking soda water. And my friend was right - it's like drinking sea water but not as salty. I can do that easily. If I can choke down that damned Noni juice, and this Nancy's organic cottage cheese, well - I can do that easily.

I wish I could just try to heal myself naturally. If this were 13 years ago, I would have gone that route. But now I have people that I love, people who love me. I've been on my own for so long, relationships were really bs, I've never been connected to anyone like my husband before - and my daughter, well, it goes without saying that I need to be my best for her. Speaking of, my phone is still updating but I'm going to get my gym shoes on and get ready to hit the door when it's done! And after that - fun times with my girly - I sure hope she did her homework!