It's been so busy in my career - been flying everywhere, tired but somehow I manage to workout more on the road than when I'm home. So, I've felt really good! And, I'm hovering at my pre-diagnosis weight. It's not easy staying there, but I'm surfing the wave. Yippee!
Nice to be home for a while before I get crazy again. Last night, though, hubby made it hard for me to sleep. The one thing that I've been getting good at. He had been feeling sick for a few days at least, and last night after his gig, we got home late, and he crashed. Unfortunately, before I did. You know when someone is sick and they are just louder sleepers? Well, I was thrilled that he was getting much needed sleep. I was too tired to get up for earplugs or even throw myself on the couch or my daughter's bed. I should have forced myself.
Ended up waking up for good at around 6:30 am. This, after getting home late and sleeping on and off for a few hours. *sigh*
Had a good workout anyway. Walked a bit. Came home to make hummus*. Cleaned up a bit, awaiting daughter for dinner. I am hoping to get to bed really early today... or at least reasonably so.
I had the craziest dream in my staggered sleep. I had freaking lymphedema. I looked at my hand in my dream because it felt weird. I had sausage fingers that I couldn't bend. My arm was huge (and not cool like Arnold!) I woke up completely frazzled. Glad it wasn't reality, but it does scare me.
*Hummus Recipe
Soak and cook dried organic chickpeas, or drain a can if you're feeling lazy.
Pulverize in a food processor or other vicious machine.
Add in organic olive oil - the real stuff. Check your source and watch out for the fake junk!
Season with Himalayan salt. Add cayenne to taste, if desired. Add other things too. This is the freedom recipe! Citrus, herbs, you name it!
Serve with chips, crudite, and love.
I'm not much of a measuring kind of gal in the kitchen. Taste until you love!
I just wanted to say I really like your blog. I'm a 34 year old who was diagnosed with breast cancer in 11/2012. I have a bilateral mastectomy, chemo, radiation, and have been taking Tamoxifen since 8/13. It's making my hair fall out. It's making me depressed. It's causing dental issues. I could go on, but you obviously know the drill. So I think I'm going to stop taking it. I found your blog when doing a google search about stopping Tamoxifen. I just wanted to say hi, and to tell you that your blog helped me make a difficult decision.
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Jennifer!!! Hi, and thanks so much. Yes, it was a nightmare for me. It got to the point where I didn't feel human. My career was over. I turned into a mean mom and wife. At least an unstable one. Definitely depressed. Possibly bi-polar with tourettes (I'm kind of not kidding - I had no control over my angry outbursts, sometimes putting me in dangerous situations... I can't count how many times I told hubby I was divorcing him!) Some seem to be able to deal better with it, but nobody that I've met... and my oncologist at the time told me I was doing "great" on it. Wow, if that was great...!!! Of course, I'm not a doc. Speaking from my own experience, however, I found that once I stopped, I was able to exercise again, my joints hurt less every day, I'm more able to eat a very clean diet (the tamox gave me horrid tastes that had to be dampened with crap like hard candy and other no-no's). I'm staying as alkaline as possible, I'm feeling so much better. My metabolism is starting to come back, my hair is growing back again (had a haircut and the woman was concerned that I had so many "baby hairs" - of course I was THRILLED!!!) Please keep in touch, let me know how your journey is going! Lots of love and healing vibes to you... xoxo
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