… and, magically - 6 days late, I got my period!
Whoopie!!! Yeah, remember? I'm on that heinous Tamoxifen. The one that is tricking my body into acting 30 years older. Well, I was wondering why I was craving so much damned sugar, salt and fat. Besides just being human, that's what it was!
So, I've been out of town for 5 days. Worked out every day. Not to out-do my ravenosity. But, it's ok. I'm doing the right stuff that I can, and tonight, I'm staying in. I made an executive decision. Ghetto-rita from the convenience store, along with gummy candy and some nuts. My uterus hates me, but this comfort food is helping. Hoping to fall asleep and STAY asleep - every night I've spent sleeping and waking in spurts of a few hours at a time. Considered napping mid-day, but decided on a walk instead. Which resulted in said snacks. Better than room service - I can't eat produce anyway (except the lovely orange-like fruit I had earlier, thank goodness for peelie fruit in unsafe water territories!) I'm hoping to find an English speaking movie - the typhoon news on CNN is thoroughly depressing and awful. I hate feeling helpless, don't you? I wish that relief would find them faster. People are dying. Shit.
If I can't sleep, off to the treadmill I will go. I detest cardio, but have lifted weights thoroughly, daily. Something tells me that I will find comfort behind my eyelids tonight. Perhaps once I reach the bottom of this margarita. And a melatonin or two if needed.
The nice thing about being on tour - I have very little responsibility compared to real life. I can't clean my house. I can't scrub floors. I can only practice my instrument, wander the town if it's safe, show up on time for soundcheck and gigs, be there for lobby calls, remember to pack everything up when leaving a hotel. And this is why it's good that I no longer tour for longer periods of time. It's a good rest for my brain, but not so much that I forget how to be ME at home, to me and my family.
Off to channel surf. Wish me luck on that sleep deal!
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